Do not ignored Me.

I know you are not okay right now. I do kinda feel like that too.

Everything seems so bad for me. My eyes sting. My heart aches. My body is numb. For pain, for the stress, for the pressure, and such emotions I couldn’t describe without my heart being in pain and my eyes were swollen.

I started to feel I like to write right now about without a single thought of who else gonna read it anyway.

Maybe I feel no one care. Maybe I kinda feel guilty because I am like those people I judge. But, why am I so hurt for some worthless things?

Who will care for someone like me who cares for other people’s misery? Who cares for other people’s lives? I want them to be happy. And being happy is with Him. With Jesus. Am I bad for thinking that way? I felt bad for judging them. I felt bad for insisting they should love Him. I felt bad for myself for caring…but I can’t stop.

My soul can’t stop it. I am hurt for them. I don’t want them to feel unloved. Unworthy. Not appreciated.

Noooooo! That was all wrong. They aren’t any ounces of those words. They are worthy to be love. God sees them as worthy because of His son, Jesus. God loves us so much and here I am sulking and don’t know what will do and feel about it. It just seems wrong.

In reality, people long for love, care, and attention, when in fact, they ignored the most important news for them. That is Jesus.

Whoever you are, if you are reading this, maybe right now you didn’t understand what I am saying at all. But, I do hope and pray, soon you will. And like me, your soul will be crying for those people who ignored Him.

I’m tired.

People say just rest when I say I’m tired. I know that. I am aware of what will I do.

But what if, I am tired emotionally, mentally, and physically? What will I do? Is resting a bit just enough?

I realize it is never enough. I’m tired of people saying do this and do that that even I have tons to do, I’ll prioritize them. I’m tired of their expectations of me. I’m tired of them.

I am tired of stress. I’m tired of pressures. I’m tired of tasks every day. I’m tired of being tired. Feel me?

I just want to rest and have peace. Just, please. Because I am too tired now.

What would I attain for being good?

“A good man obtains favor from the Lord, but a man of evil devices he condemns.” – Proverbs 12:2

Reflection: This verse opened our eyes that we can obtain favor from the Lord if we are a good person.

I am a Born Again Christian, a newly believer whose fond of doing things that I want or what I desire to do. I do good sometimes, but most of the time isn’t. This verse told me that inorder to obtain favor to the Lord I must obey his Word. So, I did things that are good and right. I continued to serve Him. Attend the church. Pray for others salvation. Pray for other people. Doing devotion daily. Attending to prayers session. That later on, I didn’t notice that I am excelling in my studies. That every prayer I am praying he is answering it. I am very thankful that in those activities, I am creating intimacy with the Lord God. Growing our relationship with Him makes me happy. And to be with Him, to the good times or even bad times, is making me strong everyday.

I learned that through obeying Him we can obtain favor. So just continue to serve Him with all your mind, heart and soul and see what will happen next. For God is good always.

An Enounter With Him

True friendship means…

Do not be deceived: “Bad company ruins good morals.” – 1 Corinthians 15:33

Reflection: Are your friends‘ good or not? There’s another story of mine that I want to share, it’s about friendship or simply friends.

Since my family always moved place, I always anxious on how I can adjust and make another friends. Sadly, I always leave my friends because of my family’s situation. Also, it’s hard to make new friends in your new school if you are like me, a shy type of girl.

As the school year starts, I am glad that some of my classmates are my friends before so it is not really that hard to cope up. As usual they are fun to be with. Everyday we are always sticking to each other. And one day, I was shock that my friends brought another friends, at first I was thinking the more the merrier but there’s a time that I was silent while they are busy chitchatting.

My new friends are fun to be with also that later on I became comfortable with them. But as I observed them, one by one, there’s intances that they bully someone, talk behind that someone, laugh at someone’s mistakes, cursing, playing instead of studying, going somewhere else instead of doing projects, buying something or food minute after minute wasting their money. There’s more, they are cursing to each other, telling me, they are just showing how they love each other. That later on, I am like one of them, a good girl with a bad side. Doing what my friends doing.

Is it a friend I look for? Indeed not. I want a friend I would cherish. Before I thought they are really my friends but as years passed and as I see their real color and intention in me….I was oh. I was sad thinking that they want to be with me because I can help them in their asignments, I can help them in their quizzes ‘coz I got brain but when I realize they are not the friends I am looking for, it’s okay to leave them. Wishing someday they could change to someone better.

This verse helps me to see wrong side about my friends. This verse opens me more about friendship. Friends are the people who will support you, love you, encourage you and always there for you if you are troubled or what. I see Jesus as best of my friends.

When I am down, he’s there for me as I am crying for help to save me from drowning. Whenever I felt alone, He’s there for me. Whenever I felt afraid, He’s there for me. Jesus is my best companion. As well as my new godly friends that helps me to know more Jesus.

Just ask and pray, surely He will hear our pleas but in return we must gives thanks and show compassion towards serving Him.

An Encounter With Him

What is true love?

“Love bears all things, believe all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” – 1 Corinthians 13:7

Reflection: Define love for you?
I will tell you a story on how I encounter Jesus. I was invited by my friend Mary in the church. It was their celebration of extreme net. At first, I doubt. I hesitate because I was busy that time then she still pursue me and I said I try. And when she invite me again, I answered yes. Since she motivates me, and the truth is I really miss her and I want to see her that time.

I was shock that it is the church where I visited before. I felt ashame because I was not able to come after 2 years but I also think that maybe it is my opportunity this time to know and see this church.

The topic for that day is about love. I actually felt hurt hearing that word and memory of my love that time flashes in my mind that’s hurt me more. That day, my spiritual eyes were open about the real meaning of love. They taught me that love is God. That love is happiness, peace harmony not the love I encounter to a guy who hurts me. Love does not hurt you, instead it motivates you, compassion you, dedicate you for something you really want.

And if you love, you must endure, you must believe, you must hope, you must bear all things. That’s love. And Jesus gave me His wonderful love towards me when He sacrifices himself on the Cross of Calvary for my sake, for our sake.

An Encounter With Him

Blog #1

Goodbye, for me, is the most painful word someone will say or I’ll say. It is the word that would bring tears to your eyes. It is the word that would make you reminisce about the old times. This word will hurt and haunt you. This word will bring chaos to your heart. Thinking if it is okay to continue or create a new start.

This word is the most painful word for me because I don’t want it to end. I want someone to stay. And it’s hurt the most when I must tell it to the person that needed to leave my side. To leave me forever and cut the ties that bonded us.

But in the end, I must accept the truth. People come and go. Nevertheless, they will leave me, soon. No one will stay by my side forever. Because that word doesn’t exist nowadays.

Poem #1

Isa rin akong tao.

Nasasaktan tulad mo.

Naghihinagpis din ako.

Nagagalit, umiiyak, tumatatawa, nalulungkot, ngumingiti gaya niyo.

Pero bakit ganito?

Sobrang nahihirapan na ako.

Tama pa bang ipagpatuloy ko ang pagbabahagi ko sa inyo?

Tama pa ba na mahalin ko ‘yong taong niloko lang ako?

Tama pa ba na lubusin ko na ang katangahan ko?

Nagmahal lang ako gaya mo.

Pero bakit ganito kasakit umibig?

Kakambal ba ng sakit ang pag-ibig?

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